its been sometime since i've blogged. life hasnt been great to me at all. the ups and downs, its too much for me i guess. i cant take i anymore, neither am i going to run away. im gonna do something to make things better for me as well for the people around me. im gonna change, change to a better person, change my lifestyle, change my everything. i wanna make myself better.

to the people who had been there for me all these while, i really want to thank you for now leaving me when i needed a helpng hand and a shoulder to lean on. life's been hard for me and everything coming down harsh, i dont know how long more i can go on like this but thanks for not leaving me alone(:

to the 3 people i wont forget..

joannadarling: darling, thanks for being there to listen me out. thanks for being there when i felt like crying. thanks for letting me know the importance of my life, thanks for letting me spill out everything thats inside me. school started alr and we didnt really have time to meet up anymore, but make sure you promiss me that you will stay strong and lead the life you should without him. ily alrights (:

daryl: hey dey! thanks for talking to me on the phone last night, i really felt better. i was really in a state where i dont even know where i belong and i didnt even know what i wanted to do anymore. i really felt so dirty and wanted to walk into that heavy rain last night and just soak myself entirely wet just to wake myself up to tell myself stop dreaming. but after the talk with you, i reallised that actually i didnt have to do that, because i have friends around me that cares and i know i wont get hurt with you guys around(:

adelinebaby: baby, i know we're far apart and we are somehow drifting apart. but rest assure that we wont leave each other in the lurch ok (: thanks for always being there when i need someone to listen to me, there to teach and guide me through the crisis of my life. i was really afraid i would have been dead by now if you werent there online for me to tell me what i really should do. i agree i was being too naive back then to believe that true love awaits, but i now know that all these only happens in fairytales. from now on i promiss, i'll change for the better and i make sure i will live my life to the fullest(: