Saturday, May 31, 2008
10:00 PM | Sunday, May 25, 2008
7:40 AM | its not that easy after all.I'm not the type to get upset and cry'
Cause I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got that whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truly
But at the time it didn't mean a thing
My mind is gone
I'm spinnin round
And deep inside
My tears I'll drown
I'm losin grip
What's happenin
I strayed from love
This is how I feel
This time was different
Felt like I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm in this condition
And I've got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what, you'll never see me cry
Did it happen when we first kissed
'Cause it's hurtin me to let it go
Maybe cause we spent so much time
And I know its no more
I should have never let you hold me baby
Maybe why I'm sad to see us part
I didn't give it to you on purpose
Can't figure out how you stole my heart
How did I get here with you I'll never know
I never meant to let it get so personal
And after all I tried to do
To stay away from lovin' you
I'm broken hearted I can't let you know
And I won't let it show
You won't see me cry
This time was different
Felt like I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm in this condition
And I've got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what, you'll never see me cry
All my life
these few days wasnt as happy as i thought, had fun when i was outside with my friends. made a confession few days back but i know it impossible. someone tell me im stupid alrights! because i really am, sometimes i just hate myself for being so stupid. letting go of something i know that i'll regret and hurt myself real deep in the end. the lies and everything i said to him, i admitted it to him, i told him all those was just to make him give up on me. but then it wasnt what i wanted it to be at all -.- IM STUPID! i can only blame myself for doing all these. im fine alr, away from all these things and stuff, and i've forgotten about him(: finally, those msges that come, it doesnt seem to affect me anymore, im glad about it (:
saw a fight at poppa that night when i came out for a cigg-.- like so wtf can !!! the guy got this fucking yaya payaya face, then in the end he kena beat until rabak bodoh ! but then he stand up and walk away like nothing only lo!! knn, step only laa horh, play cheat one sia he, people use hand use leg, HE USED HIS BELT CAN!!!! *whips* woah -.- *sweat laaaaa* zxczxczxczxczxc -.- lamers laa, fight for what??? sit down play chess laa, who win then who win lo, lose alr dont cry! uh luhs, whatever -.-
uhhhhs, got my ankle injured agns, after the injury last week recovered like 3 days back, went to poppa last night agns, and i got it injured agns! didnt sprained it last night laa, but then the pain come i didnt want to bother luhs. then i continue doing. improved alot okays (: my side steps are working alr, running man( ABIT MORE LAA) then my JUMPSTYLE (((((: i think its good! lols, half turn, full turn. bleahhhssss !!!!! zxczxczxczxczxc im proud of myself, left leg also can luhs! you all can anot !!!!! LALALA~~~ okok, i better not be so yaya also laa horh! later kena beat x= bleahs, should be staying home these few days, the tickets for the party is with me alr, 100 okay! STRESS -.- will be meeting up with my comsumers and my customers to pass them the certain amount of tickets they need and i gotta teach them how to do the registration laa -.- wahlao, LAYCEH LAA DEY~~~ uh luhs! then i think should be staying home to focus on my studies for the rest of the time alr, gotta stop going out too much alr, before sirong comes back from taiwan after his COMMANDO training, MATI laa me -.- he go for a mth, everyday i also go out, other than the days that i was sick (: LOLS okok. i shall go drink some hot milo then study abit before i go to bed then (: shall update agns tonight hopefully i wont be going out ? LOLS!!
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
6:54 AM | 
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THE SE7EN SINS
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SIN- LUST
Event: Kakumei <かくめい>
Venue: St James PowerhouseDate: ３日６月２００８年
Theme: Tokyo Couture
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SIN- GREED
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17th June 2008 held at ZOUK from 9pm till late.
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hms, ok. now is 12.10am && im waiting for that asshole jeremy to come online -.- he damn pig can! say add him first then he lie awhile then he come online, wahlao. gangster laa-.- ok la, i dont blame him for being so tired though. BECAUSE, im tired too. we slept in the morning laa, and i bet i slept earlier than him -.- LOLS, cos i fell asleep while msging him :D err, actually we should be in town now laa, joey say want to sleep first so we ok lo ok lo. went home to sleep say wake up at 4 meet at 5. i can 101% garauntee i was the only one that woke up la-.- i set alarm mahs ! JEREMY, I TOLD YOU I WAS A LIGHT SLEEPER ALR !! alermak sial -.- dont believe me-.- i texted you ok! haha, so i went back to sleep then woke up at 7 plus. came online for awhile, wanted to ask grandma to buy dinner but i wanted to eat prawn, then she say that day just eat today eat siao ahs ! then i angry luhs, then i say sua laa, dont buy la. no mood eat la, then i went back to bed -.- woke up at 11 to come online to talk to makoto cos he need to resend me the information for the party-.- LOLS ! hms, okok. i think i got nothing much to say about today laa -.-
YESTERDAY...
went to town to meet makoto for dinner, kiefer and beverly was there too, but they left early. so meridien kopitiam has western food. then headed down to timah irc. meet jeremy, joey and co there. played dota-.- wasnt in the mood ytd, so i played like fk >< err, then went to eat at coffeeshop. then they keep playing ice laa-.- wahlao... then makoto went home cos he was going to school. err, then i slacked with jeremy and joey. damn crapp laa the two of them-.- knn, disturb me until so happy, siao luhs! then slacked all the way till 12.30pm !!!!!! then i went home alr(:
Monday, May 19, 2008
6:45 AM | i guess this is really better for us.meet makoto at far east then waited for elisha and xiaojess. then we went to subway to have dinner. saw roy before i went in, then told him about the party (: LOLS !! im progressing fast uhs :DD haha , then went outside to smoke after eating. we were bored laa, then i and makoto keep discussing about the jumpstyle thingy laa. about the new steps, then what we should do, what he's gonna teach me next and stuff. lawls, talk like as though we're going for competetion like that laa -.- HAHAA ! then xiaojess suggested that we could go somewhere else cos it was rather bored there, we agreed (: so walk luhs, didnt know where to go then in the end went to cine luhs. reach alr then saw jeremy and co. stupid jeremy, bluff me say text me when he wake up from the nap in the train but then never laa -.- asshole rights x= uh luhs ! then slack outside cheers. baybee texted me, he cried. cos he did badly for his exams. he got upset then had a lil fight with his brother, his dad saw, then he smashed everything on the floor. then baybee got slapped by his mummy before the mummy ran out of the door. i knew baby felt sad, i didnt know what to say to him to make him feel better. tried to tell him that everything will be fine and his mummy will me ok after some time because no matter what, he's still her son. but then he seem so upset and couldnt listen to whatever i say. then my phone no money alr laa -.- cant text him. fked up laa -.- hms, then went to cirus @ rivervalley to play dota with elisha and makoto -.- lost la, cb sia -.- i so long never play alr, my skills also like fk alr laa -.- i dont want to play dota alr laa -.-
is it really so hard to find someone thats meant for you? even if its a simple someone? the ones i've meet are always not the types that i want. i just want it simple.. really simple.
im never the same as the past alr. love life sucks cos it spoil the whole me.
i dont even think im myself now at all luhs ):
im never the same as the past alr. love life sucks cos it spoil the whole me.
i dont even think im myself now at all luhs ):
someone thats english speaking,
someone that will lend me his shoulder,
someone that will hug me and tell everyone im his,
someone that will do jumpstyle in the clubs with me,
someone that will stay with me till morning to see the sunrise.
even if he's a year or 2 younger than me,
i know he's somewhere out there but... nvm
yesterday...
woke up yesterday kinda early laa, had lunch with dad at ave 2 then went to buy my things then we came home. slacked all the way then went to meet makoto at town at 7. LOLS ! JUMPSTYLE LAA DEY ~~ slacked all the way with his team, had lotsa fun with the okok laa -.- LOLS, hayden kept disturbing me laa, ass uhs !! then kiefer came, went outside cine to smoke, then saw liping they all then xiaojess they all. hms, then went to foodcourt to have dinner. came out to smoke agns and off we go to popparazi. went in about 12 plus la, then started learning jumpstyle (: guess what ! tryphena is a fast fast fast learner okay ((: SAY ME PRO WILL YOU (: but still abit blur laa -.- haha, injured my stupid leg ytd. gotta keep it wrapped up now. lols, then jump all the way till 430 laa, came out, went to bk house agns (: had dinner and slacked AGNS !! hms, then there was this indian and angmoh quarreling laa -.- wahlao, fking noisy can -.- then got quite emo agns last night, thanks jeremy for accompanying me sms all the way this morning (: gotta go prepare alr, im meeting makoto and elisha and his gf at town (: shall update when im back agns..
stupid kiefer took this shot laa -.- GREEN TEA ADVERTISEMENT PEOPLE ((:
Sunday, May 18, 2008
5:23 PM | fk off laa -.-
i really dont know what going on. i hate myself so much for hurting myself when he got himself into trouble, hate myself for dropping all those tears for him when i knew that guys cant be trusted, hate myself for being so naive that i fell so fking deep for him, hate myself for not being able to forget him and enjoy myself outside with my friends, hate myself for knowing him. i really dont know. look at what i just said, its so not myself, but those are what im thinking . im really very confused, i really feel like crying out so loud and hope that i can see god so he will be able so give me a hug, im crying now, but does he know. he only thinks about how he feels and how unfair was i to him. why are guys like that.
saturday...
went to meet makoto at town last night to catch speed racer and met up with some of our friends before the movie for "BREAKFAST" and we almost forgot about our movie laa -.- headed down to poparazi with makoto to meet up with the rest that went down earlier. reached ard 3am, then we head that it was closing at 4am so we stayed outside thinking weather to go in anot la, then in the end when we looked at the time, 345am so we thinking forget it laa -.- then 4am alr, still not yet close leis, so we go ask luhs. then bouncer said closing at 5am laaa -.- wahlao, best luhs (: then went to bk house after all our friends left, sat there, talked and drink water and played our handphone games all the way till 6am then cab home(:
friday...
rouge people(: ROUGE !! the place was ok laa, slightly bigger than dxo i guess (: had fun there with ada and friends -.- she was shuffling all the way laa-.- but i didnt really enjoy myself though. he havent seen me at clubs before laa -.- havent seen what i will wear to clubs before, dont know what am i like when i go clubbing then he say im not like that laa, this and that laa. ehs, is just that you dont know and yet to see it for yourself. dont blame me for being too sacarstic at cine and while texting you. cos i didnt even want to talk to you. is just that you dont know how close i am to my friends, YOU DONT ! so dont act like you understand me very well laa, just because i got too close to my guy friends, you wanna beat them up, then jolly well beat me up laa horh? cos its my fault what, i was the one who went to disturb them what(: hello, these are what friends for, for us to enjoy ourselfs and to cheer each other up with we're feeling down. looks like you really dont understand laa.
slacked with makoto and elisha all the way till morning 8plus. cabbed home with sin.
to elisha: cheer up alrights sweetie (: it hurts everyone to see you like that (: smile alrights !!
Friday, May 16, 2008
3:46 AM | im so streessed up -.-pictures people... pictures(:
Thursday, May 15, 2008
2:52 PM | 
my hammies(: aint they cute x33
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
3:15 AM | ok, basically i've created my post but i have yet to update it anyway. now that i have all the time to do it since im stuck at home with my stupid fever, then i'll update all that i can (: hms, it hasnt been good for me recently and in the past actually. met up with many stupid relationship stories although i know how much the guy loves me and stuff, but it isnt meant for me, the guy ends up choosing someone else but in the end, BROKE UP STILL. as for me, i choose to stay single, until recently, a mth ago. i've found someone else, maybe from the start of the relationship he's been really good to me, he never has any say in whatever i do. but it isnt as good as what you will think. maybe you might be thinking that im crazy because these kinda guys is really very hard to find, but then my temper and my tandrums, its really hard to accept if you are someone that cant tolerate with no patience. he is also someone that cant tolerate, but then he is still trying to put it up just for me. omg, why is he doing this. why wont he just shout at me. just flare up, show me what you've got, at least i know your limits. slap me if you have to, dont just keep quiet. omg. it seems to be like im the one that cant tolerate it at all. i swear i wont cry if i were to leave him now, i promiss i wont. its not that i dont bare to leave him or anything. not that i dont have any feelings for him, but is just that. it isnt the reason to break up. expect me to tell him that hey, i wanna break up with you because youre treating me too well -.- excuse me, that abit too much for an excuse uhs~ whatever laa, put it aside alrights, lets not talk about that alr
uhhh ~~ im back in contact with baybee alr (: omg, i missed him damn lots alrights, i cried at times when he isnt here, all i could do is to look at my elmo. hug it tight to sleep, baybee promiss to fill my whole room with stuff toys. well, cookie monsters coming next bday-.- (its abit too long though) i'll tell elmo to wait alrights. baybee's still the same, as caring as usual with his stupid lame nonsense that never make me stop jumping around the house screaming and shouting into the phone x= *opps* uh luhs, thats his way of entertaining me (: we'll smile and laugh together but at times we'll also cry together x=
I'VE GOT MY HAMMIES ((: cheers !! im glad they're here alr (: LOLS ! i've been waiting alrights^^ 2 male and 2 female :DD
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
4:00 AM | omg, i didnt know what happen la-.- but then darling got angry because i didnt spent enough time with her on her bday. form the start this wasnt the plan la, the timing and all, it wasnt right. where we going and what we doing were all upside down. she told me that i had all my time all the way till 12midnight when im suppose to meet her. so obviously i went to meet my bf -.- then she told me to come down early. i said ok, but i was late, it was my fault. im sorry. but she flared-.- omg, she was with her friend, at least i know that she's not alone so i left slightly abit later. then she called to tell me to cab down to cine straight cos they all going there. i was in the cab alr, guess what, ROADBLOCK -.- i told her, i doubt she believed me, she said " cab where got roadblock wan ! stop lying la, you know i dont like it" so i told her i was in the middle of that fking roadblock, not trying to say that i had to alight what. whatever la. the worst thing was, i called her then she shouted in the phone and say that she was alone-.- at first she said she was in the cab with her friends coming down to cine then now she say she's alone. wtf?? i owe anybody anything?? nope ! then she tell me no need to come down alr, so the first thing i thought of was to just go down and catch a movie with her since she was alone. but she handed my phone, KNN. asshole la.i got pissed so i told the cab driver to uturn luhs. i was crying in the cab like hell. even the cab driver got worried when i told him im fine. cb la, i got owe anybody anything mehs. i accompany bf darling say i got no time for her, i pei darling, bf say i got no time for him... knn la, then both also dont want luhs. better right. fk la, everything also my fault.
monday
today's the actual day of her bday, its chalet. so i came back and meet her. aiya, had some quarrels also. but in the end we had some nonsense while having lunch before we went to the chalet. everything didnt really went well also, reach the chalet alr. then not feeling well alr. so didnt really moved much, help start up the stupid fire and started pengkan-ing the wings, dawgs and crabsticks. later part of the day was sleep for me cos i didnt feel well alr. felt like vomitting la. ASSHOLE rights-.- pity me people, its at the stupid chalet that i fell ill. agrhh-.- so so so, i went to the toilet, VOMIT then i went to take a nap darling's dog laid beside me *aww, sweet rights* then i woke up cos i wanted to vomit agns. so throughout the chalet was rest, wake up, vomit and back to bed. then jeremy and his friend came to fetch us, dropped darling's dog at home then went to bukit timah to having banana split. then went to queenstown to play pool. then i went home. darling still went on with them. came home and started to vomit agns. omg, i wonder how is my intestines>< gross =".="!">
tuesday
woke up in the morning feeling slightly better cos my fever was subsiding, darling thought i lied about my fever-.- knn. cos i texted her, wanted to meet her for lunch. but end up the attitude she used to reply me. knn ASSHOLE la. i not happy alr what. then i dont want to say anything alr so i tried to irritate her la, then i told her "ok luhs, then you win luhs" early early say no plan for her bday, i help her think until like fk like that. went to cake shops to look for cakes, asked people what could i do. plan plan plan, plan LAN lah-.- knn la. since like that then sua luhs. quarrel until everything also want to bring up and say. friendster want to delete my pic then up to you luhs. i never do anything wrong. im up for my consience, i dont mind. someone tell me that this is what darlings are for ya (: omg, kiss my ass yaw-.- im pissed, really pissed. quarreled with everybody that day cos of trying to think of a fking plan to celebrate her bday. but forget it. since the person that everyone help thought about doesnt seem to appreciate anything then let her be la. dont want to talk about her alr la, make me more pissed-.-
