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Labels: depressed, deprived

ok, sorry for the uber uber long long and late update darlings and baby (:

have been really busy with my own stuff, coming home late, the tonning. meeting up with annabelle, helping joanna celebrate her bday, staying over at friend's place and more. hms, recently played mahjong at bernard's friend's place, knn. LOST $20 luhs. wahlao, comfirm rabak laa horh -.- super broke recently uhs, no work, never study, no bf, nothing to do. ehs, someone help me can?

current song: its not goodbye

heard it from aloysius's phone, man, damn nice. i like (: as much as i liked him, kept quiet all these while, many things happened. im glad i had 2 darlings there for me, joanna and annabelle(: really appreciated them alot, maybe without them, i dont even think i will be here updating at all. we've been through the ups and downs. ok, back to my topic about him, hms. i dont know laa, maybe all along i zi zuo duo qing, maybe i all along yi xiang qing yuan, but from what i heard, might not be also. i dont know also laa horh-.- maybe what he said might not be true, maybe i think too much alr. but put yourself in my shoe, maybe you'll understand why im saying all these.

guys. there are many out there for me to choose, not trying to diao qi lai mai, but there really are. those really willing to accept my tantrum, willing to accept my character, willing to give in and be there for me through it all, but then at the end of the day before i go to bed && when i wake up, youre still the one i think of. i miss you even before you leave, youre the reason to my smile still, you put the brightest star up in my sky and light up my world with the words that comes out from you. every single song i listen to, it reminds me of you. tell me, if its true that i fell for you? no matter how much i yearn for a guy to be gentle, to be able to give in. but i dont know why i still wished that youre mine. having to know that the one you loved is right beside you but at the same time knowing that you cant have him, tell me how you'll feel.

i missed my chinese n lvl oral the other day BECAUSE OF SLEEPING -.-

updates: mahjong fever, slack, and darling (:

i promiss i'll update tomorrow (:

its been sometime since i've blogged. life hasnt been great to me at all. the ups and downs, its too much for me i guess. i cant take i anymore, neither am i going to run away. im gonna do something to make things better for me as well for the people around me. im gonna change, change to a better person, change my lifestyle, change my everything. i wanna make myself better.

to the people who had been there for me all these while, i really want to thank you for now leaving me when i needed a helpng hand and a shoulder to lean on. life's been hard for me and everything coming down harsh, i dont know how long more i can go on like this but thanks for not leaving me alone(:

to the 3 people i wont forget..

joannadarling: darling, thanks for being there to listen me out. thanks for being there when i felt like crying. thanks for letting me know the importance of my life, thanks for letting me spill out everything thats inside me. school started alr and we didnt really have time to meet up anymore, but make sure you promiss me that you will stay strong and lead the life you should without him. ily alrights (:

daryl: hey dey! thanks for talking to me on the phone last night, i really felt better. i was really in a state where i dont even know where i belong and i didnt even know what i wanted to do anymore. i really felt so dirty and wanted to walk into that heavy rain last night and just soak myself entirely wet just to wake myself up to tell myself stop dreaming. but after the talk with you, i reallised that actually i didnt have to do that, because i have friends around me that cares and i know i wont get hurt with you guys around(:

adelinebaby: baby, i know we're far apart and we are somehow drifting apart. but rest assure that we wont leave each other in the lurch ok (: thanks for always being there when i need someone to listen to me, there to teach and guide me through the crisis of my life. i was really afraid i would have been dead by now if you werent there online for me to tell me what i really should do. i agree i was being too naive back then to believe that true love awaits, but i now know that all these only happens in fairytales. from now on i promiss, i'll change for the better and i make sure i will live my life to the fullest(: