Tuesday, June 10, 2008
4:02 PM | show me more care will youBECAUSE BAYBEE CALLED AND SAY HE WAS GOING THERE :DDD
bii said he was going to put tattoo, in the end reach there is desmond put leyy. cover up his old tattoo on his wrist. then awhile later, gong came also. then went to beauty world upstairs the coffeeshop find bii's friends-.- they drink so i talked on the phone with ahjo(: then started to rain. bii drank quite abit. then bii went to meet ahwai. tagged along to see them play number ball. bii lost quite alot laa -.- ok, then bii pillioned gong's bike home, his papa's bday so they waiting for him to cut cake. so i cabbed down to butterfac with daryl and desmond. reach alr, went in for awhile only. then i came out alr. bii came down later with gong. they cant go in cos they wearing slippers. err, then i stayed outside also luhs. wtf, saw that mofo junda laa -.- wahlaozxczxczxczxc.... spoil my mood siol ! then afer that slacked with bii and friends at some nearby table we walked passed. then bii went off to eat with gong then he went home. so i cabbed to mos mac to meet up with makoto and kansie. daryl came along. had breakfast there then slacked awhile then cabbed home with mak and daryl after kansie left. im home alr, called bii but he didnt pick up leyy, if he's sleeping then how he's gonna reach camp at 8 -.- stupid bii -.- ookok, im off to bed alr. im tired ): nights people (:
Labels: happy, unsatisfied
Monday, June 9, 2008
5:15 PM | 
7june08
went cine to meet up with makoto and the rest there. watch narnia, very nice. not bad laa, but like abit the no link to the previous part of the show leyy-.- hms, then saw zhong de and the rest too. the rest i forgot alr x=
8june08
cine agns, woke up super late. but at least i woke up when kiefer called. then 5mins later makoto called also. lols! need 2 persons to really wake me up completely sial. hms, went to shower then headed to cine. kenny called asking where was i cos he sai he was at kpool playing pool and billard with adrain the the other 2 boss and bouncers. so reached cine, met up with makoto and the rest, went up to kpool. played for awhile, I WON KIEFER 4 GAMES IN A ROW :DD woah, happy new year sial ! first time horhs! hms, waited for kansie. so asked jingmei, shannice, cheryl and her friend to acc me down to get my dinner. wanted bk but then !!!!! not open. infact everything close alr, so decided to wait for kansie first luhs. went back up to kpool to look for them when kansie arrived. they play finsh alr then went downstairs to smoke. FINALLY BAYBEE REPLIED ME !!! omg, i almost cried agns x= but i didnt leyy (: he said sorry, due to sleeping and busyness. idk, but i trust him, no use lying to me also, he gets nothing outta it. so texted him for awhile, then he didnt reply agns. hms, then headed to cuppage de behind to have prata. WAH, VERY EXPENSIVE SIOL ! slacked && KIEFER MADE ANGRY LEYY, almost slapped him. but he stopped so i calmed down too(: err, after awhile he left with elisha, they going home. so lefted me makoto and kansie. we walked to parklane wanting to go headquarters to play lan, but then reach there, CLOSE ALR -.- so we cabbed down to timah luhs. played pool for the whole night, then came out saw sin, deon and another guy with lechelle they all. went to al ahmeen to have prata agns (: woah, the prata there nice can, but then the rice there is EX EX EXPENSIVE de luhs ! hms, then sin came over, added all our left over money together then we cabbed back to clementi, kansie slept over at my place. had alot fun also. MANY PICTURES TOOK (: thats all for the day i guess (:
9june08
woke up suddenly, then texted ahjo telling her i needed my keys. she say she'll be reaching in 1 and a half hour time. i said ok then i went back to sleep first. woke up when she called saying she was downstairs. opened the door for her, kansie woke up with she came too. KANSIE PAISEH LUHS ! NO MAKEUP SIAL SOMEBODY (: hms, slacked all the way, we got hungry then i went to cook lunch for the 3 of us (: hms, not bad leyy. egg, spag fried with butter and some kinda tin fish. then smoke and slack agns. KANSIE VANDALISED MY ROOM WALL WITH HER BIG BIG NAME CAN !!!! ( shall post the picture later) then bathed together with kansie, started making a fool of ourself in the toilet.(shhh, secret ((: ) then came out and we spent a fking long time deciding on what to wear leyy. done alr then went to take train. ahjo alighted at gombak so i and kansie continued our journey to amk laa, went to kansie's place, she changed and he had dinner over at her place. then we cabbed down to homeclub. in the cab, was talking to kansie about us. no money still take cab, who can save us, lend us abit first. then the cab driver overheard our conversation, when we reached, the cab uncle say " nvm laa, no need pay. treat you all for this journey luhs, you all no money mahs " woah, HAPPY !! lols, then headed over to homeclub. we no money, so adrian helpped and got us in cos he know the bouncer also (: bleahs ! lols, finsh alr then there got fight luhs -.- woahlao !!!! slacked at riverside till first bus, practice my jumpstyle and hardstyle there as usual every morning.
&& LASTLY happy birthday kansie darling :D
going to bath now then get ready to head to cine meet makoto, tonight butterfactory event (:
Labels: need a break, stressed
Saturday, June 7, 2008
9:49 AM | baybee, come back will you?someone tell me what to do.
no mood to post about ytd, wasnt that good anyway.
days without baybee sucked..
baybee,
i love the fact that you dont act fake,
i love the fact that you believe in give and take,
i love the fact that how i can be myself when youre around,
i love the fact that i still do the same thing i do,
&& what most is, i love you, truely
p.s : bii. 101% has been put into this relationship, i dont expect anything except the love from you. i dont need you to be rich with everything i want, i dont need beautiful clothings neither do i need jeweleries neither do i need you to have loads of money to make me happy. having to spend my everyday life with you is already a blessing that god gave to me, having you is the greatest gift i've ever received. you can ask me, its just a short period of time, but why i could fall so deep. hun, i dont know why too, i wont give up neither will i give up on you. i believe you'll be back. i'll hold on till the very end, as much as i want to be yours. baby, ily x=
Friday, June 6, 2008
9:35 PM | i wanted you baby, i needed you badly, i swearI wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how damn deep
I wanted you, I wanted you
Labels: hurt
After all of these times that we've tried
I found out we were living a lie
And after all of this love that we made
I know now you don't love me the same
The way that I love
The way that I love you
The way that I love
The way that I love you
The way that I love
The way that I love you
I woke up kinda early today
And something told me from that moment
It wouldn't be the same
It felt like you were hiding something
But I didn't push it
I didn't complain or say nothin
I tried to act like I didn't see it
Cause deep down I knew I didn't want to believe it
But there it was, it was you and her
You left your side
kick on the nightstand
And I read
Everything you did, and everything you said and
And now I'm standing here looking like damn..I thought it was you and I
Now all I got to say is why?
After all of these times that we've tried
I found out we were living a lie
And after all of this love that we made
I know now you don't love me the same
The way that I love
The way that I love you
The way that I love
The way that I love you
The way that I love
The way that I love you
I notice now, that when I'm around
You be trying to lock the door
Whispering on the phone
Now wait a minute, since we been in this house
You ain't never did this before
Tell me what's this about?*what's this about?
*I tried to sit and say to myself
This here is too good he don't want nothing else
But there it was, it was you and her
You left your credit card receipt inside the beamer babe
Everything you bought her, and everything you spending
Now I'm standing here once again
I thought it was you and I
Now I all I have to say is why?After all of the times that we've tried
I found out we were living a lie
And after all of this love that we made
I know now you don't love me the same
The way that I love
The way that I love you
The way that I love
The way that I love you
The way that I love
The way that I love you
You Lied, You lied, Oh Why?
Why'd you have to lie to me?
Why'd you have to lie to me?
Why'd you have to lie to me?
Why?After all of the times that we've tried
I found out we were living a lie
And after all of this love that we madeI know now you don't love me the same
The way that I love
The way that I love you
The way that I love
The way that I love you
The way that I love
The way that I love you
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change of blog song people, its been days since i've blogged x= sorry, wasnt in the mood, shan't say too much alr, i dont know whats wrong with me. everything seem so wrong.
i dont know whats going on also, wonder why do guys take a sec to reply the girl before they got together and take forever to reply once they're together. had a feeling that something isnt right going on, something seems to be hiding from me, but i dont wish to think about it either, cant be bothered. makes me feel worst and more fucked up. people, save me will you. tell me what to do, alermak, very tired lo. tired of all these shit.
khai's leaving for malaysia alr, his papa sending him back. omg-.- dont do this pls uncle x= days without khai wont be the same anymore, the fun we're gonna have at poparazi wont be there anymore, the fun, the laugher, the morning & midnight madness that i used to play with khai, the disobeying of his stupid actions eating BAH COR MEE, doing stupid actions when we're trying new moves for jumpstyle, the slacking at riverside every morning till first bus. khai, i wont forget. the porks & babi we share, the moise we always make, the disturbance we've brought to everyone in the club. im gonna miss them all, i dont want you to go x= i swear, im crying. from this morning until now. khai, i dont wanna see you go, dont want you to disappear among our clique, dont want you to be gone from msa, i wanna disturb you everyday, stealing your cap from behind, lending me your hoodie for my camwhore times. remembering us doing shuffles & jumpstyle early in the morning at 3 AM at riverside staircase. i wont forget it at all, today's the last time i got to see you. i glad i went back ): how i wished we stayed longer. khai, can you dont go><
today wasnt a good day at all, it sucked big time. woke up at 5pm plus, received a msg from baybee saying he's booking out alr, but then he going his friend bday. i said ok. then went to bath and leave the house ard 9 plus, went down to amk to meet aiai & co. went to mac to have my dinner then cabbed down to boat quay. walked pass bardot, saw jessica, ahgong & dragonfly. then i walked to pop alone. then i texted baybee, saying i saw his friends & makoto saw him in town. then he tell me he at bardot also. ask him meeting me anot, he tell me everything end then meet me-.- SO FKING NEAR BUT YET IT SEEMED SO FAR CAN, nvm lo. then drank abit with laihock, suddenly turned moody. ended at 430am. then went bk for supper with khai, makoto, kansie & laihock. then went to bardot intended to find baybee but he not there, called his phone then dylan pick up, saying they at numbers. ok lo, then they acc me walk there, went up saw baybee smoking at the stairs, i went up to him and called him, he took me as transparent can. didnt bother to talk to me at all laa -.- called everybody, talked to everyone except me, didnt even look at me at all. ended at 6am. went down. baybee just flagged a cab then wanted to board, i shout bii where you going? then he never ans, walk off with his friends, then i walk alone at behind. then he flag cab agns, boarded with dylan. then i just walked pass infront of his cab luhs. he didnt even bother, i cried. went to riverside to find makoto and khai, i cried like fking shit. wanted to jump down, but i didnt. cos i didnt dare to x= then went to eat bak ku teh with them then went home alr. the rest i dont wish to say alr, its about it for today. i didnt miss out anything.
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
7:30 PM | goodmorningx= LOLS!hms, last night at powerhouse was HELL laa -.- knn, got this girl come borrow my ezlink from me, then bouncer caught the girl, knn. i doing door tickets halfway kena call over also, say want call police x= knn la, i almost cried can-.- i cannot kena questioned like that de leyy... aiya, over le jiu dont say le laa, make me feel worst only. then last nights account, wah. cb, short of $152 bodohs! baybee was suppose to book in last night, then suddenly text me say maybe not booking in, then say daryl they all jio him come down powerhouse, then awhile later, baybee reach alr(: happy can! i know baybee wasnt happy ytd at first when i went down earlier, i asked him, baybee, i go chiong you wont worried mehs? then he say, got choice mahs, go down sell tickets jiu hao lo. hais, baybee, sorry for making you feel upset x= but i didnt do anything there ok! turst me, cos i wont let you down! hms, then baybee went in with daryl, terrance and darling first, i had to do some things outside, settle the ticket's account and door tickets. went in alr, no mood dance alr lo, short of money, lend ic kena caught-.- kaos! then stand there, then darling say if i stand there somemore she go ack alr, ok laa. then i dance lo, together with zihui(: then baybee like so siann like that, he like so busy can -.- keep sms de sial, hais. also dont know he msging who x= i dont dare to anyhow go think x= later i kisiao agns! bleahhs ! hms, then later part got TRANCE sial ! hms, then i did jump abit with my swollen leg though, baybee didnt scold x= lols! close one eye only leyy !!! lovelove baybee laa (: haha. hms, then halfway got fight -.- first thing baybee did was to pull me away then he stand infront of me(: baybee, i know you care alrights, just that you dont know how to show (: i dont blame him for keeping quiet all the time neither blame him for showing a distant between us(: hms, then the fight over alr, went outside. didnt bother take my comm alr laa-.- hais, then slack awhile. cos terrance's bike cant go out. then baybee pillion his bike go geylang then daryl cabbed there i think. i went off to take cab with darling, then went home. had a feeling aunt wasnt asleep. but baybee said not to worry, nothing will happen. in the end i reach home, SIAO ! she sit there wait for me-.- HAPPY ENDING LO! hais, then i ran out. went downstairs. slacked all the way alone. baybee was busy there with his friends. so i came back in the morning. hms, slept until now lo. baybee is in camp x= i miss him hell lots ok!
though we just got together, im afraid to lose you alr. baybee, show me more care can -.- it makes me feel the distance between us alr, like so far apart. you shy, i understand. 2 people you so shy le, then got people even worst. love for you, its growing deeper and deeper each day alr. no matter how i try to stop myself, it just doesnt seem to work. baybee, hold me tight and let me know you love me(:
wahlao, baby so long can, think he kena kidnap by some bangala laa-.- i text him, saying" baybee, you kena kidnap uhs? very long lo" then he reply me" CRAZY U, at yishun la, mummy buying things" alermak, CRAZY ME SIAL ! ok, crazy over you can(: x= bleahhs ! i falling deeper, each day. spending time with baybee is all i ever wanted, sleeping next to him made me felt like the happiest girl on earth, embracing me in hs arms made me felt as though im the lukiest girl in this whole wide world. omg, i cant stop myself from loving him, cos i dont want to stop too(: but i can asure myself, if he is gone, out of my life, i'll be gone too( GONE CASE LAA) hais, im missing him alr x=
yesterday
uh, let me think where i went ytd uhs, oh! woke up went to bath then waited for baby and his mummy go get ready. then cab go out. after that his mummy dropped me and baby at my hse there then his mummy cab home alone x= err, then baby say he dont want to go up to my place, cos he scared ps -.- ok lo, so i went up to change clothes then take my inhaler(: err, then popo ask me, i come back alone mehs? why so rush, so i told her bf at downstairs lo, she say she wanna go down see him. i say go la, then in the end she at the door alr she say dont want to go down alr, cos she also ps -.- then she say scared if she go down, then scared baby see her then baby angry x= wahlao ! forever de leyy, she always so bias to my bf-.- fk laa-.- then i went down told baby about it(: then baby laugh for 1 min only-.- wahlao ehhhhhzxzxzxxczxczc. then baby say walk over to anqi's blk want go meet her then i say ok(: then reaching alr, anqi text him and say cant meet alr, cos she got something on. then we walked to mrt station take train to amk. go to his friend's shop. slacked and then slacked agns(: then had dinner and lunch there. then went to meet son for the tix money, then went to bishan park, then went to serangoon gardens. went there to drink with baby and his another 2 campmates. lols. damn funny laa they all -.- lols. then came back home to sleep alr.
yesterday's yesterday
hms, wait uhs. i think first. where i went. i think i was at baby's hse also. lols, err. then woke up at night. went to boat quay, drink then came back to his place. hms, i really forgot alr x=
to baby: baybee, now that i've got you in my life, i'll make use of this chance to tell you how much i love you and how much i wont want you to leave me. i promiss i will change for the better, not to be so violent, not to be so vulgar, not to be so pessimistic, not to be so petty, not to be so unreasonable && i promiss i wont move on without you, baybee, ily (:
to darling: darling, although many things really happened. two big quarrels drifted us far apart. i wont want to lose you, i swear. days without you wasnt good at all, though i had fun and acted like nth happened. but then deep in my heart, i was still worried about you. the days we had and the memories, it'll never be erased,forever you definitely be in my heart. i promiss i will bring back this friendship of ours back like how it used to be and i'll make it even better. i promiss i make it up for everything and the times i've neglected you(:
