Sunday, May 18, 2008
5:23 PM | fk off laa -.-
i really dont know what going on. i hate myself so much for hurting myself when he got himself into trouble, hate myself for dropping all those tears for him when i knew that guys cant be trusted, hate myself for being so naive that i fell so fking deep for him, hate myself for not being able to forget him and enjoy myself outside with my friends, hate myself for knowing him. i really dont know. look at what i just said, its so not myself, but those are what im thinking . im really very confused, i really feel like crying out so loud and hope that i can see god so he will be able so give me a hug, im crying now, but does he know. he only thinks about how he feels and how unfair was i to him. why are guys like that.
saturday...
went to meet makoto at town last night to catch speed racer and met up with some of our friends before the movie for "BREAKFAST" and we almost forgot about our movie laa -.- headed down to poparazi with makoto to meet up with the rest that went down earlier. reached ard 3am, then we head that it was closing at 4am so we stayed outside thinking weather to go in anot la, then in the end when we looked at the time, 345am so we thinking forget it laa -.- then 4am alr, still not yet close leis, so we go ask luhs. then bouncer said closing at 5am laaa -.- wahlao, best luhs (: then went to bk house after all our friends left, sat there, talked and drink water and played our handphone games all the way till 6am then cab home(:
friday...
rouge people(: ROUGE !! the place was ok laa, slightly bigger than dxo i guess (: had fun there with ada and friends -.- she was shuffling all the way laa-.- but i didnt really enjoy myself though. he havent seen me at clubs before laa -.- havent seen what i will wear to clubs before, dont know what am i like when i go clubbing then he say im not like that laa, this and that laa. ehs, is just that you dont know and yet to see it for yourself. dont blame me for being too sacarstic at cine and while texting you. cos i didnt even want to talk to you. is just that you dont know how close i am to my friends, YOU DONT ! so dont act like you understand me very well laa, just because i got too close to my guy friends, you wanna beat them up, then jolly well beat me up laa horh? cos its my fault what, i was the one who went to disturb them what(: hello, these are what friends for, for us to enjoy ourselfs and to cheer each other up with we're feeling down. looks like you really dont understand laa.
slacked with makoto and elisha all the way till morning 8plus. cabbed home with sin.
to elisha: cheer up alrights sweetie (: it hurts everyone to see you like that (: smile alrights !!
