ok, i didnt blog ytd so i just woke up and i shall start. uhs, woke up early in the morning and chatted with kansielove online. ok, talked and waited for her then decided to go meet her and liping at amk. kansie was doing her hair when i reached. so we waited, took some photos and stuff. err, then went to have pepper lunch for lunch. headed down to town to meet shuwen. she left then we went to cine. they wanted to go for interview but end up, PAISEH. so we went off. walked ard town. fareast, tangs. headed to raffles mrt to wait for kansie's bf while liping went home. after 14 trains (: he was here, then went to paya lebar to meet up with the rest. tagged along for their modelling fitting. headed to town after that. had bk for dinner with kansie. slacked outside cine, talked and laughed. some went off so left me, kansie, daryl, hann and ivan. went to some bridge quite far away from cine at some highway. sat ontop of the bridge till morning, went to cuppage for breakfast -.- then cabbed home

had a heart to heart talk with kansielove on msn before we both headed to bed. thanks love and im feeling much better after telling you those things. i was really damn upset. but thanks for telling me those things (:

moody, upset. words cant explain how im feeling now.

ok, im done packing my room after 1hr(: fast i admit, first time also. ok. err, basically my room kena luan luan hiao by some fuckedup people so i gotta pack it. intend to change the positions of my stuff but then i havent thought of how i wanted it to be so, its gonna be like this. pictures for ytd. went to the hospital with ling to visit lc, just had his op cos he broke his leg again at BBDC during is prac1. damn stupid and he kept laughing at himself. bought his drinks and ling got him a eeyore.

lc : wahlao, is one is BU(female in hokkien) luhs!!
me : suaku sia you, eeyore male leyy -.- just wake up seh uhs?
lc : yes mehs? then why the ribbon on his tail pink color

then i kept quiet, no comments alr. so we slacked there for quite long, got something to eat at delifrance while ling went to draw money. and i bought something from 7eleven too(: i forgot whats that called but its for babies, you put it in their mouth and let them suck thingy~ whatever laa. ok, left for westcoastpark to celebrate pearl's bday. err, ok i helped out with starting the stupid pit BUT BUT BUT i didnt get to eat laa, cos i had to leave for work. ling & his friend drove me there so i could save my cab fare(: then to my surprise, one man show for me ytd night(: no other waitress were there at all. ok luhs, so slacked abit then started working, finding all sorts of things to do. manage to took out the marbles from the bottles and i left it there at the shop in the shot glass. better be there when im going back to work, i want those marbles!!! had a hard time getting it out ok ): ok, bad mood ytd so was abit blur. people say mixer warm water mixer then i still go added ice into the cup, liqour also pour extra like my hand too heavy to pull up && people say hoegarden i took another beer instead. so my punishment was to finsh all those that i took and poured wrongly. i admit, very very very disgusting, but too bad, no choice. ended work ard 2. then saw desmond and friends outside eating, slacked awhile then cabbed home, guess what, i forgot to take the receipt-.- CANT CLAIM! wtf, wasted 15 bucks laa deyy -.- stayed downstairs the blk due to some reasons, came up ard 7 in the morning. slept awhile and woke up ard 12. went out with grandma awhile then came back.



its been 3 or 4 days since i've last seen you, images of you kept flashing pass. like i said it takes 2 hand to clap. i wont force you, i will wait. i promiss. even if the answer i get isnt what i want, i'd still wait. like you've said, we'll take it slow alright? but dont leave me in the lurch ): dont disappear outta my life suddenly, i'll be afraid. i dont want it to happen. miss you ):

ok today is 17aug. so i shall backtrack ok (:

16augs
stayed home the whole day after work the previous day. slept more than 20 hours leyy, had a stupid headache with i woke up. wth. got scolded by him cos i didnt eat for more than 24hrs and i was having my gastric when i texted him. hms, ok i promiss i wont do it agns ok(: no next time. ok, texted him for awhile then he went to sleep cos he was out the whole night while i stayed home.
15augs
came back from his place, went home. had some quarrels at home. then i went to prepare and went to town to meet ivan, andrew and nicholas. waited for nicholas to eat then we went downstairs to smoke. saw a gay, jitao look like girl i swear, but why he open his mouth, "hello" jitao man -.- gross luhs, wahlaozxzxzxzxxz!! ok, bought bubble tea then bussed to heerens. saw a group of kids, act gangster -.- they wanted to disturb but then they tried to siam us, got bored. went to smoke then went over cine to meet up with lp, wg, han. ling came too. slacked, wanted to get my slippers but cine dont have-.- went up to 9th floor then wanted to hiong movie, kena caught, all ran -.- LOLS! down the stairs. wah, seh! ling forgot that i couldnt walk or run straight away when i just stand. jitao blank uhs, couldnt see anything. legs also wobbly -.- wahlaozxzxxz. ok, met up with the rest at ljs. went over to taka with ling to get my slippers, had a hard time trying to tie it leyy -.- then slacked at cine till the sky turned black alr. went down to kobayashi for dinner, ivan insisted me to eat cos i didnt for the whole day. came up smoke, then went over to opp cine to meet up with andrew, daryl, ml, j, wh, xb, fiona, kansie and daryl. was abit bored and il got worried if i was too bored. but he made me smile with a stupid face he made. then was talking to him about later boss calling me to ask me to go work last min, he say wont. lols, expected uhs. phone rang, keong called. "ehs, you at where? free tonight? come down work leyy, short of 1 person" ivan, i won ok(: ok then was discussing with him if i should go to work since i couldnt come home yet. then he keep saying dont work dont work dont work, but then in the end also went to work, cabbed down to bq then he walked me to my workplace. lols. had a small talk with him before i went to work by the river (: hms, then they went to silver while i was working. wah, first time work until so messy uhs. got no time to smoke luhs, but at least i could still text. then ling came down with vicson, gavin, zy, ky, louis, joanna and another girl(i forgot her name). my place no space so they went to temptation to drink, took a small break to went to look for them, had a heart to heart talk with vicson before he leaves for korea cos he wont be back for a year luhs!! ended work early cos they had some misunderstanding there. went over to look for them at silver, didnt pay so hiong in -.- didnt dance much uhs, not used to it cos i didnt drink much also. they had a little fight there also uhs. (bad day isnt it-.-) went to bk, waited for the rest to eat then cabbed home with ivan and his friends. they send me home first, then i went to bed alr.

14augs
first day of work uhs, was pretty fine cos nobody -.- LOLS ! ended work ard 3 plus, uncle came to fetch me then went home to change then to his place. hms, i missed going back there, missed everything there, not forgeting what he did that melted my heart. woke up in the afternoon, he bluff me say 4pm alr, actually 12 -.- then wait for him to go wash up and bath then cabbed to my place while he cabbed down to town.
13augs
stayed home till evening, went town to meet up with irfan and the rest, slack and had lunch at hongkong cafe. then headed to arab st, they went sheesha while i sat there. hms, they left alr so i went down to bq find xhao and the rest. as usual, drink drank and the rest got drunk (: im was still safe, had my interview and i got my job (: happy luhs. they meet ivan they all at bk. sat there till morning then he sent me go take cab(: reach home then went to bed.

woke up and rushed home from joanna's place. had lunch with grandmas downstairs. had a quarrel with grandma at the coffeeshop regarding the stupid oven -.- wahlaozxzxzx. meet up with joannaSH then went down to tpy to meet up with out friends. then slacked as usual like what we used to do those days -.- didnt manage to take pictures with her though but she got a snapshot of me. stupid yaw! cant grab leyy, shall ask her send me tml (: cos she aint online. ok, things started to fall in place. no comments.




to the one that called: if you think so then so be it, even if the sky falls. my ans will still be the same. dont tell me if i aint hapy ask my friends or whatsoever to go over. sorry to say. i aint that UN-Civilised as you are. yes, though you are really talking nicely, but the words that comes out from you, aint any difference. you reap what you sow so do unto others what others do unto you. even my friend says, if thats that case then dont allow people to go there, bringing someone else home because theres trust. then whats the point. no point explaining to you, cos im just wasting my time.




to gavin: thanks for being there uhs, didnt know what to do and didnt mean to make you skip school and got you scolded. we could have just met up later right? LOLS! hms, sorry for letting you sit there alone while i fell asleep uhs, ok i know super unglam. just dont talk about it, i know sure super super ugly luhs!!! ok, youre accompanying me to interview tml (:

to ling: i dont know what to say either. to say that i guess its the end. even g got shocked when i told him i told you that. do you, even know how much it hurts when i had to say that. yes, youre right that maybe i dont understand the situation youre in because im not you, but have you ever though of how i felt when i received your call. youre not the only one that been through this before. trying to get it back for you and asking you to tell her that is me, aint meaning im the one. just like i told g, im doing this cos i know youre in s situation without me and i know youre having a hard time and its no point carrying on. so this is all i can do. like i said, its a love that never ceases, but now i realise and i really believed that many thing can really happen in 1sec. just like us, gone. get what i mean? i never suspected anyone close to me when anything happens. anything you can just call me or texted me, not by going through someone else. you know how i felt? looking at the lyrics of the song i'd always hear when i thought of you, its kinda sad. try changing the lyrics the singer is singing to. imagine im telling you what exactly the lyrics is saying, will you know what im trying to tell you, though its too late.